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November 16th, 2012 @ 3:04pm
Through a ton of online searching I think I finally found a friend of mine who I lost touch with for 7 years.

I really hope it's him.
I'm about 95% sure it is.

But now I'm scared. What if it is him and even after all this time he still wants nothing to do with me? I wouldn't blame him if he did... It took those 7 years for me to realize that I hurt him through the actions I've done. I was young, and very childish. All I wish for now is to at least get the closure I never got and tell him how sorry I am. For everything. It might seem self-centered of me, but the best possible outcome is that I can get back in touch with him... I miss talking to him. He never stopped being a good friend in my eyes. Hell, for the past few days I thought about the whole situation long and hard, and I have to admit I still love him. Not in a romatic way, but in a loving way where I still care about his well being and how he's been since. I sucked at showing that before... but I love him as a close friend, if that makes sense to anyone. I want to start over now that I've grown up a bit and understand more about life. But if that's something that will be out of my reach, then at least knowing he's still alive is good enough for me.

I just... it's been hard for me since we lost touch. I would occassionally wonder about him. And without the means to contact him, it was difficult to know for sure if he was still alive. That was the worst part. It's a huge relief knowing that he is. I hope he's still doing well. I hope he goes far in whatever he decides to do in life. He deserves that. He deserves friends who help him through any tough situation he's faced with. And he deserves all the love in the world. Because back then, that's what he gave me. And I was too dense to see that, and took it for granted. If I could be any part of that now, words couldn't describe how happy I'd be.

Daniel, you're a fantastic man. You're intelligent and caring. And no one should tell you differently. I love you. And regardless of what happens, that's never going to change.

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November 14th, 2012 @ 8:00pm
I guess I'm going to use this journal to keep track of what happens in my life daily. It's a pretty ideal location to do so, being that LJ is pretty much dead. Add to the fact that most of my friends follow all the other social networking pages I have (this being the only exception). Sometimes I want to post things knowing that none of them will see it. Not to say that I'll be talking about them behind their backs, but just because I really dislike getting emotional around them. I like keeping myself closed off emotionally to most people, so I don't appear weak. I'll only get emotional around a few close people, but otherwise... *shrug*

It's also nice to come back and see the things I posted from years back. Regardless of how idiotic the subject is, anyway. Heh. So this journal will also be for that purpose too.

Once I get my thoughts together I'll make an actual post. So, until then.
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So, yeah. I'm alive again. [
May 23rd, 2011 @ 12:00am
And have absolutely nothing to blog about.


Brb, going to find something interesting.
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Like a Bad Girl Straight to Video [
October 31st, 2006 @ 6:14pm
[ mood | groggy ]

I actually did something I said I'd do... ZOMG. XD! Here's twelve tracks from Mindless Self Indulgence's CD "Frankenstein Girls". Obviously the songs are a bit... explicit, as seen from their titles. But they are still awesome none the less. So, uh, HAPPY HALLOWEEN, yo! :DD

I'll make a regular update tomorrow since tonight is halloween and I'm on candy duty. D: So ja.

Edit: Making this post public so anyone can download these. Sharing is caring after all. Or something like that.

all a board, hit the road...Collapse )
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Friends Lock [
October 16th, 2006 @ 11:04pm

Comment to be added ♥

Because I've been pulled out of my lazy stage for the moment. XD I don't have any major rules or anything... perhaps because my mind is off. Who knows. Just have some things in common with me is all, simple, ne?
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Finally... [
March 16th, 2006 @ 8:38pm
[ mood | completed ]

Yay. .___.';;

Yuugiou - [14]
Nana - [4]
xxxHolic - [5]
and 1 Final Fantasy: Unlimited Color Bar [Kumo]
Total: 24

[x] I'm not that big on credit, but please, PLEASE, comment so I know you took something. Don't mean to sound vain here, but I'd like to know that people actually like my graphics (doubt it XD, so modest...)
[x] Credit is nice, but like I said you don't have to if you don't want to.
[x] DO NOT claim that you've made them. No one likes a lair =/;; If you don't credit just leave the "comment" space of the uploaded icon blank.
[x] Save the icons to your own server, in other words, NO HOTLINKING. Please and thank you.


Kthx?Collapse )

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Iconfiend100 / Vincent Valentine (1st Post) [
February 5th, 2006 @ 4:39pm
Done~! Well, sorta.

Artist: kikaya
Character: Vincent Valentine
Completed Theme(s): 01 (Kiss), 02 (Forgiveness), 04 (Are You There?), 18 (So Far Away), 19 (Silence), 21 (Moonlight), 23 (Sweet Dreams), 28 (Sensual), 31 (Take Your Time), 36 (Misery Loves Company), 49 (Lace), and three Artist's Choice (51, 52, 53).

Icons in post: 14
Icons completed total: 14/100
Credits: In my User Info, here

...And the sorrow overflowing from the scar which can't be erased...Collapse )
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Icon Batch~ [
January 30th, 2006 @ 6:44pm
Alrighty, here are the icons.

Neurotically Yours (Foamy) x 12
Blade of the Immortal x 3
Animatrix x 2
Card Captor Sakura x 1
Megami Kouhasei / Candidate for Goddess x 7

Total: 25


Creamy Cheese~!Collapse )
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January 30th, 2006 @ 3:54pm
And the winner is...Collapse )
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You Can Never Have Enough Calories [
January 24th, 2006 @ 12:15am
Calorie x 05
Calorie Bases x 46

Total: 51

+1 Calorie FO Banner


Warning: If you don't like the idea of yaoi (boy x boy relationships) than I highly suggest not to click the link. Also, the bases contain sexual content (not very explicit though) so, again, you are warned. I shall not be held responsible if your eyes are blinded. If you have no problems then you may continue on.

Mmmm, carbs <3Collapse )
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